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My Male Lead Uncovered My Inner Thoughts (7)
“Disappointed in me… Since when?”
“The future of this country is bleak as well.”
Now this ghost wouldn’t stop talking.
“Is your name common knowledge, Sir Knight?”
If so, it’d be a little difficult to ask other people about it. If it were me and someone asked me who Einstein was, I’d probably give them a judgemental look. I planned to investigate as soon as I returned to the Count’s residence, so I grilled the knight.
“Should I look for your name in history, philosophy, humanities, or medicine?”
Seriously, his lack of facial expressions is beyond frustrating.
“If not, maybe in the arts?”
I kept tossing questions at Kylis hoping that he would show even the slightest reaction.
“… Maybe religion?”
In a tone of voice as if he’d had more than enough, Kylis admonished me.
“At times like this, you should try reading more.”
Ugh… I really did study earnestly…
“Why did you suddenly change the way you speak? You’re not the serial killer of the century, are you?”
“If you don’t want to accrue knowledge there’s always the option to ask other people. Although you will just be making a fool of yourself…”
It seemed that he had made a rather large decision to tell me his name and was more than a little disappointed when I responded that I had no idea who he was.
Feeling somewhat cowed I muttered, “Wait, I’ll figure it out soon.”
At the very least, I was certain that Kylis wasn’t someone from the Laniakea Empire. I knew almost all of the famous figures from the Empire.
The ghost, still holding a grudge, rebuked me once again.
“I suppose it was a lie that you just read books every day.”
I started to argue back by remarking that it was reasonable for me to be unfamiliar with the history of a foreign country, let alone something from as long ago as Kylis’ lifetime, but it dawned on me that I hadn’t ever said that to Kylis.
I felt like the blood from my whole body had drained out through the soles of my feet.
“Do you… know me?”
Kylis told a lie that even a young child wouldn’t believe and then gave me another warning.
“Stop coming here.”
I was a bit annoyed with him. He had been saying the same thing over and over again for a while now. It seemed that he didn’t want to provide the answers I was hoping for.
“Do you not like me?”
“I suggest some self reflection.”
“Ah, you’re really narrow-minded. To the child of the child of the ch… Well anyway, shouldn’t you be more generous to your much, much younger juniors in life?”
Tch. I snapped back at him sullenly.
Kylis muttered in an astounded tone of voice, “If you knew who I was, then…”
I felt the urge to stuff a gag into Kylis’ mouth. Sadly, the structure of his vocal chords differed from Oscar-oppa’s.
“Stop disparaging me. I heard more than enough from that petty priest last time and I’m already overloaded.”
“That wasn’t an insult just now…”
Perhaps I was getting accustomed to the harsh, scraping noise, but Kylis’ voice struck me as being younger than I had previously thought.
It was one more clue. He must be a famous figure who died relatively young.
I waved my hand at him.
“Okay. I get your warning. If I learn your identity, Sir Knight, then I won’t be able to come back here, so please give me some useful, parting advice.”
I almost fired back with, “What the hell are you talking about?”
The horse lowered itself down, so I guess it hadn’t been an order for me. Suddenly Kylis lifted me up in his arms.
In an instant, my body soared skyward before being safely deposited on top of the horse. I was suddenly riding a horse while in a dress. I looked at Kylis with eyes full of confusion.
“Hey, um… Kylis?”
He responded in an oversentive way to the name that he himself had given me.
“Don’t say my name any more and go. You’ve already reached your limit.”
When the horse stood up, I looked down and saw that I was quite high up. It would be impossible for me to get down without someone’s help. But, on the other hand, it was probably better to ride the horse out of the forest rather than having to walk the whole way on my own two feet.
He seemed cooperative, but he consistently ignored me. He told me not to come again while also not being threatening at all. I was bothered by his contradictory attitude.
“Why are you taking care of me?”
“Because you discovered me.”
It was hard to take him at his word.
“Have we met before?”
My voice was laced with doubt. I assimilated more with Anastasia Sinclair as time passed and, before I knew it, I had started to perceive her past and emotions as if they were my own. There were no non-human beings in those memories.
Suddenly a shocking idea came to mind.
“M-maybe your lover from your past life…”
“You talk too much.”
“Then, the truth is that Kyls is my real father…’s father’s father’s father.”
“Brother and sister separated by death who transcended through time…? Oppa?”
Somehow it felt like Kylis was disappointed in me.
“Did you sigh just now? How did you do that without a mouth?”
“Return when you truly have no time left.”
“Ah, I was just saying nonsensical things because you kept ignoring me!”
Kylis ignored my protests. As he turned around the horse began to slowly trot away.
Ah, seriously! I said I’m out of time now! You damn jerk! Listen up! Explain what’s going on, don’t just keep it to yourself!
I ground my teeth as I let out an endless stream of harsh curse words on the inside that I couldn’t bring myself to say aloud. In the meantime the horse, which hadn’t even been given a name by its owner, walked slowly out of consideration for me since I was unfamiliar with horseback riding.
How infuriating and frustrating! That ghost jerk is worse than this horse!
The enormous horse stopped close to where the carriage was waiting. It crouched down as low as it could in order to help me dismount. I removed my shoes, groaning as I slid off.
“Thank you for taking me back. I’ll bring a sturdy brush next time.”
The monster horse, seemingly satisfied with my promise, disappeared back into the forest as I waved to it. Somehow the horse felt friendlier than Kylis.
I was exhausted from having ridden a horse for the first time in my life. Adele welcomed me back as I yawned.
“You’ve returned safely.”
Adele had an inscrutable expression on his face. Although I hadn’t been harmed at all, as predicted, it seemed that his concerns had only grown.
“Yep. Not a scratch.”
“Even so, you should rest a bit. You left the residence too early.”
I got into the carriage and settled in comfortably. Pulling Adele over, I rested my head on his shoulder.
“Hey, what should I do to get information out of a ghost?”
“… I’m not sure.”
“He seems to know something, but I don’t think he’ll tell me.”
“If possible, it would be nice if this could be resolved in a peaceful manner.”
Ha ha… I laughed awkwardly. Since the other party wasn’t a living human, it seemed that Adele wouldn’t be holding back once we had finished gathering information.
When we arrived back at the Count’s residence my brother was in the midst of relaxing to the fullest.
I placed Adele in front of me and stealthily stepped back.
“Oppa, you wanted to talk with Adele, didn’t you? The two of you can talk as much as you’d like. I have something I need to look for, so I’ll go upstairs.”
Pretending that I was just getting out of their hair, I went straight up to my bedroom. After preemptively asking Ilina not to come in, I rummage through my bookshelf.
My bedroom, which was larger than the rest of my family’s bedrooms, was decorated in soft pastel tones and housed a large bookcase made of ebony wood. I did not have a separate private study.
Kylis’ name must be here somewhere…
First I skimmed through the history books which were overflowing with the names of various people. But no matter how hard I searched, I wasn’t able to find a name similar to Kylis’.
Well, since the Laniakea Empire was the most influential region on the continent, books detailing the history of the other, smaller kingdoms weren’t common.
Urgh. By the time I finally rubbed my dry eyes and looked up, 30 minutes had already passed.
Ack! That’s not even funny. I desperately need a search function for these books!
Sh-should I just pretend to be ignorant and ask someone? But what if I’m unable to go to the forest again because he’s a horribly dangerous person?
“I suppose it was a lie that you just read books every day.”
It was difficult, as expected. Acting as if he knew me, Kylis’ demeanor weighed on my mind.
Ah, I need to investigate further.
Despite my exhaustion, I prepared to go out. The two people who had taken over the role of my guardian were in my brother’s private study.
“Adele, Oscar-oppa, I’m headed out.”
Oscar-oppa’s eyebrows shot up upon hearing what was essentially just a notification.
“Shouldn’t you ask me, your older brother, first? Are you going out alone?”
“Don’t worry, there’s a knight escorting me too. I just have something I want to buy.”
I glanced at the map spread out on his desk. It was covered with extremely meticulous and detailed markings. Ever on my side, Adele blocked my brother’s complaints before he could make them.
“All right. Don’t mind us and have a safe trip.”
“Adele, you’re not going to stop her?”
Adele asked back innocently, “Do I have to stop her?”
“Of course. You’re not worried? What if she collapses or comes back injured? Wouldn’t it be better if we all went together?”
“Anastasia would find it stifling if someone followed her around all of the time. And Anastasia in particular tends to be quite conscious of the personal guards watching her, even from a distance.”
Ah. I felt a stab of guilt.
My brother didn’t notice that I was pretending to be uninvolved in their conversation.
“I mean, just as a precaution…”
Feeling unjustly wronged, my lips twitched slightly.
Of course I tire out quickly if I don’t take the medicine and sometimes I cough up blood, but my limbs still work! It’s not like I’m going to feebly collapse on the road!
Adele coaxed Oppa in a calm tone of voice.
“But it’s not as if we can continue to prevent Anastasia from leaving the residence alone in the future, can we? She’s not going to get in trouble, she just wants to go outside. Anastasia wouldn’t intentionally overexert herself.”
As expected, the only one I could trust was Adele. I hastily took my leave while my brother was still at a loss for words.
“You heard what Adele said, right? I’ll go and return safely, so don’t worry! Well then, I’m off!”
I darted out like a shot. When I told the coachman that our destination was a district where nobles or other wealthy people would go to shop, he took me there at breakneck speed.
The street was bustling with well-dressed people.
I went to a bookstore and selected a book that listed some basic knowledge and a book that gave brief accounts of 100 famous figures from the distant past. After deliberating for quite a while, with a sense of defeat I also picked up a compendium of great people from around the world. I purchased three of the thinnest books available, but I was staggering about.
Ugh. I wanted to buy some ice cream while I was out, but I’ll have to give up.
I held the books close and walked towards the place where the carriage was waiting. The road back wasn’t difficult. As I casually glanced around, taking in the sights, I felt someone following me. It was an elegantly dressed gentleman that seemed to be about 20 years older than me.
The gentleman continued to follow me even after I turned a corner and I slowly began to lose control of the expression on my face. I had become somewhat accustomed to drawing other people’s attention by now. But this kind of attention was absolutely out!
If worse came to worst, Vesta would block him, but I just didn’t like what I didn’t like. I quickened my pace.
As I passed the ice cream shop that I had my eye on earlier with some regret, I saw soldiers from the family of the Marquis surrounding the flower shop across the street.
Oh, is Ash over there?